It's true. The past few days were the most happiest days of the year.
It started with just simple understandings. Follow by simple joys when chatting. Then comes to the daily looking-forward-to-chatting-with-you sessions. We have so much to talk about. So much 'uncommon' things that we shares. Not forgetting the slowly but steady checking of common things. We joked. We laughed. I saw him laughed (he has cam you see). It felt great to make him laugh. Because deep down, it is like a minor yet satisfying accomplishment.
At times I would be home early just to try my luck at seeing him online. He asked ....
"Why don't you just sms me to say that you are online?"
.... when he discovered later after I told him of my anticipation. But DUH!!, I am not gonna self deface and say such things! NO. Not when we have not even met!
Then came my week long rest because of a minor surgery. HE was in town! But I can't go out and meet him. I can't (I found out later that he too was not ready to meet up, so cute!!). NOT with my blood shot eyes! Then again, if we don't meet now and max out on the opportunity, which by the way is not that often, and by this I meant MONTHS-often-apart.
Finally he was schedule to arrive and for a good 7 days too! YEAH! YIPPIE!
With much anticipation, self preparation, rituals and self cleanses, calendar and watch minute watching and counting later, the day came.
Where do we meet? What should i wear? What fragrance to put on? Which shoe? Which belt? How much amount of hair gel? Do I scrunch my hair a bit or to the extreme?
It started with just simple understandings. Follow by simple joys when chatting. Then comes to the daily looking-forward-to-chatting-with-you sessions. We have so much to talk about. So much 'uncommon' things that we shares. Not forgetting the slowly but steady checking of common things. We joked. We laughed. I saw him laughed (he has cam you see). It felt great to make him laugh. Because deep down, it is like a minor yet satisfying accomplishment.
At times I would be home early just to try my luck at seeing him online. He asked ....
"Why don't you just sms me to say that you are online?"
.... when he discovered later after I told him of my anticipation. But DUH!!, I am not gonna self deface and say such things! NO. Not when we have not even met!
Then came my week long rest because of a minor surgery. HE was in town! But I can't go out and meet him. I can't (I found out later that he too was not ready to meet up, so cute!!). NOT with my blood shot eyes! Then again, if we don't meet now and max out on the opportunity, which by the way is not that often, and by this I meant MONTHS-often-apart.
Finally he was schedule to arrive and for a good 7 days too! YEAH! YIPPIE!
With much anticipation, self preparation, rituals and self cleanses, calendar and watch minute watching and counting later, the day came.
Where do we meet? What should i wear? What fragrance to put on? Which shoe? Which belt? How much amount of hair gel? Do I scrunch my hair a bit or to the extreme?
Suddenly, his call came in and I was told to meet at Asia Cafe in Subang. He has friends around. His schedule was packed with activities (I was told) and he will make time for me, but tonight, he will meet me with his friends around.
Cool i said or was i gonna to be subjected to his friends approval? Ouch! Felt the pressure amounting . . . . FAST!!
So with a brave front and much road directions memorizing later, I presented myself.
He looks HOT!! He looks CUTE! He looks ADORABLE! And he looks very YUMMY! In fact, he was everything I have imagined, pictured, drawed (in my mind from out chats accumulation) and he has a great smile too!
I sat next to him, said HI to his friends, was introduced to everyone and smiled. As it was almost 9.30pm, I ordered my dinner.
"Get some meat" . . . he said.
Huh? What meat? I was confused. I was sweating. Meat? Hmmm. I settled for kway teow soup and a bowl of shrimp dumpling. Hope this was MEAT enough for him. ;-)
Back to the table, sat down and started to eat. His gesture was perfect. He scooped dumplings, (I think there was a bit of blowing to cool the dumpling) before passing it to my spoon to eat. Awww.....! He then placed his palm on my lap. Wow!! Am i imagining this? I then moved my leg around, YUP, checked!, palm still on my lap.
The night went on smoothly. We went back to his hotel, kisses and hugs, then to Frangipanni for drinks.
Fast forward . . . I left for my own place the next day, completely happy, satisfied, fulfilled and contended. Someone up there has finally saw my loneliness and decided not to penalize me anymore. Thank you. THANK YOU!!!
The day went by, but not without me pausing to think of him. It felt great to look forward to something, in this case, someone. The day past by slowly but surely. Soon it was time to meet with him again, at Liquid. The thing is, after a whole day of waiting for night fall, I ended up looking like a total wreck! I can’t see him now. Not HIM, not anyone and certainly not EVERYONE!
I took leave today. Because I felt the need to take things in my hands. He is leaving after all and we need to spend time to merge and connect.
We had Bak Kut Teh for lunch, follow by stopping by his folks stall to pick up his stuffs, prawn sambals and Chinese buns. The a movie, he bought a shirt after the movie and we headed back to town. Dropped him off at Low Yat Plaza to have his laptop fixed and me to his hotel room to carry up his stuffs.
Sadly, the happiest day of my life for this year ended at 6 pmtish. ;-( I shall not elaborate about what happened after that.
Cool i said or was i gonna to be subjected to his friends approval? Ouch! Felt the pressure amounting . . . . FAST!!
So with a brave front and much road directions memorizing later, I presented myself.
He looks HOT!! He looks CUTE! He looks ADORABLE! And he looks very YUMMY! In fact, he was everything I have imagined, pictured, drawed (in my mind from out chats accumulation) and he has a great smile too!
I sat next to him, said HI to his friends, was introduced to everyone and smiled. As it was almost 9.30pm, I ordered my dinner.
"Get some meat" . . . he said.
Huh? What meat? I was confused. I was sweating. Meat? Hmmm. I settled for kway teow soup and a bowl of shrimp dumpling. Hope this was MEAT enough for him. ;-)
Back to the table, sat down and started to eat. His gesture was perfect. He scooped dumplings, (I think there was a bit of blowing to cool the dumpling) before passing it to my spoon to eat. Awww.....! He then placed his palm on my lap. Wow!! Am i imagining this? I then moved my leg around, YUP, checked!, palm still on my lap.
The night went on smoothly. We went back to his hotel, kisses and hugs, then to Frangipanni for drinks.
Fast forward . . . I left for my own place the next day, completely happy, satisfied, fulfilled and contended. Someone up there has finally saw my loneliness and decided not to penalize me anymore. Thank you. THANK YOU!!!
The day went by, but not without me pausing to think of him. It felt great to look forward to something, in this case, someone. The day past by slowly but surely. Soon it was time to meet with him again, at Liquid. The thing is, after a whole day of waiting for night fall, I ended up looking like a total wreck! I can’t see him now. Not HIM, not anyone and certainly not EVERYONE!
I took leave today. Because I felt the need to take things in my hands. He is leaving after all and we need to spend time to merge and connect.
We had Bak Kut Teh for lunch, follow by stopping by his folks stall to pick up his stuffs, prawn sambals and Chinese buns. The a movie, he bought a shirt after the movie and we headed back to town. Dropped him off at Low Yat Plaza to have his laptop fixed and me to his hotel room to carry up his stuffs.
Sadly, the happiest day of my life for this year ended at 6 pmtish. ;-( I shall not elaborate about what happened after that.
It’s bad enough that I have contributed to the sudden ending, there is no need to remind him of the sorrows I am going thru. Call it silly, call it stupid, but I have always been a LET-ME-SUFFER-ALONE kind of guy when it comes to ‘relationships’.
I mean, yeah I was hurt, I shed tears (minus anyone seeing), my face was burning with anger and confusion!
I like YOU. I honestly do and still does. Maybe I was moving too fast. Maybe it was just me alone, but I sure felt some form of connection. I wonder if YOU felt any at all?!
And thus I repeat, THE PAST FEW DAYS WERE THE HAPPIEST DAYS OF MY LIFE FOR THIS YEAR!!!
I mean, yeah I was hurt, I shed tears (minus anyone seeing), my face was burning with anger and confusion!
I like YOU. I honestly do and still does. Maybe I was moving too fast. Maybe it was just me alone, but I sure felt some form of connection. I wonder if YOU felt any at all?!
And thus I repeat, THE PAST FEW DAYS WERE THE HAPPIEST DAYS OF MY LIFE FOR THIS YEAR!!!
