Yes, a trip finally for me. Not super far, not super near, hey, I need use the pages of my expensive passport …its SINGAPORE!! Yes! Singapore.
Why Singapore? I don’t know, maybe it is to make use of the cheap hotel room rate, approximately RM110nett with breakfast in a 5 star hotel at Orchard Road! Cheap eh? Well, members has its privilege. He he.
For starters, it is time for me to go to Singapore, to catch up with my good friend JC. Our friendship dated back the early 1990s! It was his first hotel then (I think) and my first ever attempt at reception duties. Back then, I was told to report for work in November. So when the day came, being our first day (there were 4 other new colleagues) reporting for work at the pre opening office. It was a swanking new 5 star hotel with a hotel, apartment and shopping mall concept in Kuala Lumpur. Though the brand name was new, the owner are super rich, she is a rich man’s daughter who owns a certain hill top resort … or rather who owns the entire HILL!! Or was it a mountain? Hmmm
Anyway, as we walked into the office, the Assistant Financial Controller (AFC) came to us and announced that the first batch of new employees were only going to report on December 1st, a month from our start date and we were told to go HOME!! Boy was I angry. Firstly, why wait till our 1st day at work to inform us? We all have contact numbers, why cant they call to inform us? 2ndly, I could have work an extra month with my former employer and not waste an entire month sitting on my ass!! I then stormed off, the others just followed, sharing the same opinion, except they did not voiced out! Hmmm. As we were going down the escalators, the AFC came running after us. ‘WHAT?!” I snapped back. He proceed to apologize for the inconvenience caused and then told us … “Oh yes, I forgot to inform you all that your wages will be paid in full for this entire month’ … OMG …. Cant he have told us earlier? Hmm … so coyly, I smiled, and thanked him for the company’s generous gratitude. He he. And I quickly ran off!! We became good pals after that from December onwards. Between you and me and my blog, I think I had a crush on him soon after….hehe
Oh yes, selfish me, JC joined us a couple of months later.
And by the way, remember the ex whom I met on the bus? He joined my company a year later and under my supervision!! Boy did I gave him a hard time. Yes SIR I did. Scolded him for no reason, even for the smallest mistake. All my colleagues then asked why he was so tolerant with me, JC knew about our past though, and yet he did not once retaliate.
Alas, as sentimental a person I am, I soon fell in love with him all over again. There was this moment when we were in the pantry and I was, being my usual scolding mode self, scolded him and at a very intense moment, our eyes met .. and my heart just melt. We kissed at the pantry! YES!! Boy it was such a memorable moment, I am back in his arms … FINALLY! .. we were together for a couple of weeks, with me ensuring that his shift is the same as mine throughout. :-)
I remembered that faithful night, when my feelings for him finally died. How? Call it lame, but while I was blowing him, I asked …
“Do you love me?”
He was silent but HARD.
I asked again … ‘Do you love me?” ‘Are we officially back together?”
He finally answered …
“Casey. I love you, but please understand my current state of mind. I am like a cloud. Sometimes, when the water is so heavy, you see me gathering a big and smoky cloud and ready to pour out love showers. Other times when the weather is dry, I am no where to be seen, and all you see is a vacant spot where I used to be, clear blue skies and me no where to be found”
I was not sure I understood what it meant, but I was pretty darn sure his heart is not with me. Thus I stopped blowing him, wiped my lips (I still so want to continue blowing him), and told him to leave that very instant. My heart was punctured beyond repair. All feelings ceased to exist. I will adjust. I will survive!!
And THAT was how I learn to stop loving a person after break up, by collecting negative thoughts of that person and turned it into hatred. With hatred, one tends to forget easily. But without it, one tends to hold on to a certain piece of ‘him’ and refuses to let go. Ah … the life lessons I have to go thru. Sigh.
NOW you still have any single and eligible guys to introduce to me? ;-)
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Friday, April 07, 2006
Loneliness
Do you feel lonely at times?
Do you feel at times when you have free time on hand, but because you are alone, you tend to just sit back and wait for miracles to happen? And when it’s late and you sense that it’s not going to happen, you end up telling yourself
“ It’s late anyway, I think I’ll just sleep “
How about times when you are at a shopping mall? You walk around, with full intention of knowing what you want to buy, then suddenly, you realize that the mall is full of couples!! Turn left, couple holding hands. Turn right couple staring into each other’s eyes and talking. Turn back, couple looking at a window display and commenting. Look straight, couple walking closely with each other! Now I am not sure about you, but I would be so wishing that 1 am one of the couple among all the couples I am seeing!
Being single SUCKS!!
That said, why am I bitching about being alone when I did not bitch that much before? That’s because Kim is now seeing someone! Call me jealous, call me greedy, call me an ATTENTION seeker, but BOY it sure is lonely without him around, as and when I needed him! And even if I HAVE him, I get like a ‘shift’ companionship. How does this works? Picture this. We go out for gym. We planned to work on a specific body part. Then before we start, he said, gym is only for 30 minutes today. Why? Because his other half wants to see him. Spare me, spare ME!! Or was it SPANK me? Hmmm!! And here we have is exhibit conversation A …
CL - “Are we going out to Frangi tonight for a drink?”
Kim - “Errr . . .NO”
CL - “Huh? Why…?”
Kim - “Because I have to go see him?”
CL - “What !!??” … push Kim out the door, SLAMS it and then said … ‘BYE!”
Oh yes, allow me to add in Kim’s own defense just to make it fair eh?
“But (censored), you will always be important to me”
Anyway, back to my main topic. I tend to get sidelined at times with my conversation, I wonder why? Hmmm. Focus. FOCUS!
The thing about loneliness is, most guys whom you asked for an opinion says they would rather be single. By the way, did I mentioned that most of these so called guys are under the attached category? Cheh! And, surprise – SURPRISE!, most guys who actually replied that they can’t wait to be happily attached are SINGLE, VERY AVAILABLE and DEVOTEDLY and FAITHFULLY guys … like ME!!!!
That said, need to find a lover FAST ..!
Volunteers anyone? Surely you have a single and available gay friend, cousin, older brother, nephew, colleague, EX!!, or SOMETHING!
Please pretty pleaseeeeeeeeee ……………. ?
Do you feel at times when you have free time on hand, but because you are alone, you tend to just sit back and wait for miracles to happen? And when it’s late and you sense that it’s not going to happen, you end up telling yourself
“ It’s late anyway, I think I’ll just sleep “
How about times when you are at a shopping mall? You walk around, with full intention of knowing what you want to buy, then suddenly, you realize that the mall is full of couples!! Turn left, couple holding hands. Turn right couple staring into each other’s eyes and talking. Turn back, couple looking at a window display and commenting. Look straight, couple walking closely with each other! Now I am not sure about you, but I would be so wishing that 1 am one of the couple among all the couples I am seeing!
Being single SUCKS!!
That said, why am I bitching about being alone when I did not bitch that much before? That’s because Kim is now seeing someone! Call me jealous, call me greedy, call me an ATTENTION seeker, but BOY it sure is lonely without him around, as and when I needed him! And even if I HAVE him, I get like a ‘shift’ companionship. How does this works? Picture this. We go out for gym. We planned to work on a specific body part. Then before we start, he said, gym is only for 30 minutes today. Why? Because his other half wants to see him. Spare me, spare ME!! Or was it SPANK me? Hmmm!! And here we have is exhibit conversation A …
CL - “Are we going out to Frangi tonight for a drink?”
Kim - “Errr . . .NO”
CL - “Huh? Why…?”
Kim - “Because I have to go see him?”
CL - “What !!??” … push Kim out the door, SLAMS it and then said … ‘BYE!”
Oh yes, allow me to add in Kim’s own defense just to make it fair eh?
“But (censored), you will always be important to me”
Anyway, back to my main topic. I tend to get sidelined at times with my conversation, I wonder why? Hmmm. Focus. FOCUS!
The thing about loneliness is, most guys whom you asked for an opinion says they would rather be single. By the way, did I mentioned that most of these so called guys are under the attached category? Cheh! And, surprise – SURPRISE!, most guys who actually replied that they can’t wait to be happily attached are SINGLE, VERY AVAILABLE and DEVOTEDLY and FAITHFULLY guys … like ME!!!!
That said, need to find a lover FAST ..!
Volunteers anyone? Surely you have a single and available gay friend, cousin, older brother, nephew, colleague, EX!!, or SOMETHING!
Please pretty pleaseeeeeeeeee ……………. ?
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Research
I have another blog all ready to be published. So whats the problem? Well…..thats because … I do not know how to paste a picture to each paragraph!! Nevertheless, I have the entire weekend to reach up a software!! That sais, I ve mastered the art of picture posting!! The blog before this WAS the problem blog… ;-) The gym was packed today. Why? It’s the grand prize draw of a trip around the world for 2 at California Fitness Mid Valley!! Maybe I am just a sore loser, because I did not WIN!!...but the grand prize winner, a Chinese chap, is not good looking leh…hehe
That said, there was this HUGE and muscular guy at the gym today. Boy…he is DAMN HUGE!! Not the overly huge but just nice huge. I mean, as I was changing in the locker room, he was just standing next to me, TOPLESS!! And boy did I get an eyeful. His chest is so defined and yummy!! I could plant my lips there and just lick away…;-). Meanwhile, I aim to built a bod like HIS!!!
That said, I was on the topic of couplehood with UR and Kim. The following questions popped up :
What is the average sex rate per week for couples?
When does a couple decides on barebacking?
The following questions were not successfully posed as the distance between my home and Liquid was like 20 minutes drive away in the early hours of the morning! Bummer ….. ;-(
Who initiates the sex in a couple?
Does the initiation usually ends with sex or a “not tonight honey, I have a headache!”
Does either one still roams when the other does not?
Do you have sweet lovey-dovey names for each other?
Does the heart grows fonder of each other with time or vice versa?
I did get a few much coaxing replies. Like … And also later questions pose to other friend. You know who you are !
“Well, the sex was initially very frequent in the beginning, after some time, it’s the companionship that counts”
“Yes, we still have sex regularly, like every other day” (SHOW OFF!!)
“Barebacking? Of course!!”
“ Err … based on love and trust”
“He asked me to fuck bare back first, so I fuck lo”
“No need initiate one, you can tell when his dick is hard one”
“Sex? Errr .. I watch TV first, then decide later (and pray pray that HE is asleep!!)”
“Yeah, I think open relationships help the relationship in the long run” (yeah right! .. excuses to fuck around. Might as well not start one!! CHEH!!)
“Open? No way. It has to be him for me and vice versa! Fool around? You DIE if I finds out!!”
“Oh-oh! Ah-ah! Yeah-yeah! Argh-argh! Phew…that was great honey, next round after dinner?”
Boo hoo….when can I get a lover and start all the above? Can hardly wait!!....hehe …
p/s Note from CL, not all blogs are posted within the same day of writing, thus, when I said…the gym is packed today, I actually meant a few days ago!.. hehe
That said, there was this HUGE and muscular guy at the gym today. Boy…he is DAMN HUGE!! Not the overly huge but just nice huge. I mean, as I was changing in the locker room, he was just standing next to me, TOPLESS!! And boy did I get an eyeful. His chest is so defined and yummy!! I could plant my lips there and just lick away…;-). Meanwhile, I aim to built a bod like HIS!!!
That said, I was on the topic of couplehood with UR and Kim. The following questions popped up :
What is the average sex rate per week for couples?
When does a couple decides on barebacking?
The following questions were not successfully posed as the distance between my home and Liquid was like 20 minutes drive away in the early hours of the morning! Bummer ….. ;-(
Who initiates the sex in a couple?
Does the initiation usually ends with sex or a “not tonight honey, I have a headache!”
Does either one still roams when the other does not?
Do you have sweet lovey-dovey names for each other?
Does the heart grows fonder of each other with time or vice versa?
I did get a few much coaxing replies. Like … And also later questions pose to other friend. You know who you are !
“Well, the sex was initially very frequent in the beginning, after some time, it’s the companionship that counts”
“Yes, we still have sex regularly, like every other day” (SHOW OFF!!)
“Barebacking? Of course!!”
“ Err … based on love and trust”
“He asked me to fuck bare back first, so I fuck lo”
“No need initiate one, you can tell when his dick is hard one”
“Sex? Errr .. I watch TV first, then decide later (and pray pray that HE is asleep!!)”
“Yeah, I think open relationships help the relationship in the long run” (yeah right! .. excuses to fuck around. Might as well not start one!! CHEH!!)
“Open? No way. It has to be him for me and vice versa! Fool around? You DIE if I finds out!!”
“Oh-oh! Ah-ah! Yeah-yeah! Argh-argh! Phew…that was great honey, next round after dinner?”
Boo hoo….when can I get a lover and start all the above? Can hardly wait!!....hehe …
p/s Note from CL, not all blogs are posted within the same day of writing, thus, when I said…the gym is packed today, I actually meant a few days ago!.. hehe
My Very Own Palace
To begin with, this post was a continous of the previous post which was nicely done via words and when i started to copy and paste to my blog, the pictures did not appear. How on earth would i know that one cannot do it this way but can only do so via a choreful method of uploading all pictures from bottom up and then recopy the blogs from top down!! Phew, i could use the same now, minus the computer .. hehe.
Meanwhile, this is what my condo looks like before it was furnished!
Area at the entrance, enough to turned into a 3rd room, but who needs another room? Perhaps a walk in closet but I don’t have that much cloths to command a space like this. Meanwhile, its now a store room of sorts.
Meanwhile, this is what my condo looks like before it was furnished!
Area at the entrance, enough to turned into a 3rd room, but who needs another room? Perhaps a walk in closet but I don’t have that much cloths to command a space like this. Meanwhile, its now a store room of sorts.
The kitchen. The original owner has removed all the cabinets before selling it to me. Hmm . . . I didn’t know that the cabinets could fit into her new place of residence.
The living room viewed from the main entrance. Noticed the long mirror fixed onto the wall? Still there now, have yet to find a suitable frame edge.
My bedroom, huge room. On the right is the bathroom entrance. Noticed the clean room? That’s because this picture was taken after I ve clean and polished and rewax the parquet floorings. By the way, credits has to be given to Kim because he helped in the between the gap wood tiles refilling.
Hmmm ... perhaps i should do another post in it's current furnished state? Wait ... let me do some major house cleaning work before taking the pictures!
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