A Trip

Yes, a trip finally for me. Not super far, not super near, hey, I need use the pages of my expensive passport …its SINGAPORE!! Yes! Singapore.

Why Singapore? I don’t know, maybe it is to make use of the cheap hotel room rate, approximately RM110nett with breakfast in a 5 star hotel at Orchard Road! Cheap eh? Well, members has its privilege. He he.

For starters, it is time for me to go to Singapore, to catch up with my good friend JC. Our friendship dated back the early 1990s! It was his first hotel then (I think) and my first ever attempt at reception duties. Back then, I was told to report for work in November. So when the day came, being our first day (there were 4 other new colleagues) reporting for work at the pre opening office. It was a swanking new 5 star hotel with a hotel, apartment and shopping mall concept in Kuala Lumpur. Though the brand name was new, the owner are super rich, she is a rich man’s daughter who owns a certain hill top resort … or rather who owns the entire HILL!! Or was it a mountain? Hmmm

Anyway, as we walked into the office, the Assistant Financial Controller (AFC) came to us and announced that the first batch of new employees were only going to report on December 1st, a month from our start date and we were told to go HOME!! Boy was I angry. Firstly, why wait till our 1st day at work to inform us? We all have contact numbers, why cant they call to inform us? 2ndly, I could have work an extra month with my former employer and not waste an entire month sitting on my ass!! I then stormed off, the others just followed, sharing the same opinion, except they did not voiced out! Hmmm. As we were going down the escalators, the AFC came running after us. ‘WHAT?!” I snapped back. He proceed to apologize for the inconvenience caused and then told us … “Oh yes, I forgot to inform you all that your wages will be paid in full for this entire month’ … OMG …. Cant he have told us earlier? Hmm … so coyly, I smiled, and thanked him for the company’s generous gratitude. He he. And I quickly ran off!! We became good pals after that from December onwards. Between you and me and my blog, I think I had a crush on him soon after….hehe

Oh yes, selfish me, JC joined us a couple of months later.

And by the way, remember the ex whom I met on the bus? He joined my company a year later and under my supervision!! Boy did I gave him a hard time. Yes SIR I did. Scolded him for no reason, even for the smallest mistake. All my colleagues then asked why he was so tolerant with me, JC knew about our past though, and yet he did not once retaliate.

Alas, as sentimental a person I am, I soon fell in love with him all over again. There was this moment when we were in the pantry and I was, being my usual scolding mode self, scolded him and at a very intense moment, our eyes met .. and my heart just melt. We kissed at the pantry! YES!! Boy it was such a memorable moment, I am back in his arms … FINALLY! .. we were together for a couple of weeks, with me ensuring that his shift is the same as mine throughout. :-)

I remembered that faithful night, when my feelings for him finally died. How? Call it lame, but while I was blowing him, I asked …

“Do you love me?”

He was silent but HARD.

I asked again … ‘Do you love me?” ‘Are we officially back together?”

He finally answered …

“Casey. I love you, but please understand my current state of mind. I am like a cloud. Sometimes, when the water is so heavy, you see me gathering a big and smoky cloud and ready to pour out love showers. Other times when the weather is dry, I am no where to be seen, and all you see is a vacant spot where I used to be, clear blue skies and me no where to be found”

I was not sure I understood what it meant, but I was pretty darn sure his heart is not with me. Thus I stopped blowing him, wiped my lips (I still so want to continue blowing him), and told him to leave that very instant. My heart was punctured beyond repair. All feelings ceased to exist. I will adjust. I will survive!!

And THAT was how I learn to stop loving a person after break up, by collecting negative thoughts of that person and turned it into hatred. With hatred, one tends to forget easily. But without it, one tends to hold on to a certain piece of ‘him’ and refuses to let go. Ah … the life lessons I have to go thru. Sigh.

NOW you still have any single and eligible guys to introduce to me? ;-)