Ahh....the things about yesterday once more... but before i begin, allow me to start this blog by saying...its a lonely world that i am in right now. Being 34 and single..not by choice, being attached has always been a dream for me...alas...try as i might, he just wont appear! ... sometimes i wonder....should i just sit back, and let him look for me instead? hmm...
That said...this is what ive written on a ad site some time back... can u relate to it?
"Been around the block, in and out of relationships...yet....just when we thought that we are meant to be together...things pop up....one thing leads to the other...a seperation -period-Would like to be in a relationship again...am so into the staying together concept when in a relationship...why?..cos i like it when its 'him' to be the last thing i see before i sleep...and 'him' to be the first thing i see when i wake up.In addition...imagine all the sex we are gonna have...all the time...day or night...even at ..ahem...public and discreet places...;-)"
and this ...when i was asked what do i find most important in a relationship ...
"Definately a non open relationship...no offense but a relationship to me means...you for me and me for you...not you and me and the occassional someone else!!"
Oh yes it has attracted quite a few hearts, but alas, that was just it...a heart attraction. Meet up? yes...but ended only with just hot sex and adios!...but i dont want this...not the hot sex part, i want it alright, but cant i have a relationship with added hot sex?
Meanwhile back to m main topic .. Yesterday Once More ... somehow i felt trapped in a 'yesterday' most of the time... with music that is. I am so into old songs, songs of my era!!...yeah...from Hong Kong Jenny, Anita, Leslie, Alan and Roman ... to Bee Gees, Carpenters and any oldies one can ever imagine. Sigh. Like recently, i found a old cassette.... compiled some 15 years ago and it still works like brand new...god bless TDK cassettes. I ve been blasting those songs whenever i am driving...YES...my car still uses cassette!...songs like...Flash Dance What a Feeling and all the other canto songs like...Chan Cheng by Roman, For Foong Wong and Choong Kek by Jenny, Cheen Wong Chee Wong by Lisa and so forth. Yes...i grew up watching TVB drama series! I have nothing against the current or newer songs, but DAMN!!...most of the singers nowadays seems to have diction problems ... one cant even listen to WTF they are singing unless one is looking at the song lyrics!!
Oops....almost time for Extreme Makeover Season 3 on 8tv..YES...i am a reality show fan...popular ones like...survivor, amazing race, next top models, project runway and cat walk, biggest losers, iron chefs, queer eye, man hunt...(awww)....loved them all!!
Oh yes, being the first ever blog...i need to tell u that i am...ahem...not straight!
Till then....
1 comment:
among all my ex.. you are the 2nd one who "keep on adverstising" yourself like harap for sex or cxxk...(u keep on mentioned that u r btm... ) but really... that so many lonely, heart broken, single man out there... I really very proud of them... that they didn't "advertised" like you... even my ex... who staying very close to you... after I explained and fired to him and he reliased that what I said is true...( but too bad... we've broken up...) glad that he didn't do it anymore.. and very happy for him... finally he got a fulltime husband who loving him so much... but very sad thing is we can not be a very close and good friend anymore... because of this long waited love from his husband... (I know he still waiting for me.. and threated me that if I say yes, he will let go this long waited love) and I take the chance to "break up" everything with him... wish his story will be happy ending... till end of his life. He is a very nice guy... he taking care me a lot... when ever I sad.. sick... down... lonely in my heart, he will be always be my side when i need him... happy.. sad.. fun.. work together (hired him as part time worker)... just like a wife... calling everyday to ask me whether has taken lunch/dinner and etc...) but fate and fact... he need a fulltime husband.. that I can't fill up... that's why I have to let him go... met a guy recently... he asked... dun u feel so lucky if someone is waiting and loving you so much even thought he know that... he just a 'spare' for you?... I've answered him that NO... but GOd know that... I very touch to what he has done for me... wish I can keep him till I die.. but I can't be so selfish... with him for 2 and half years... I very thank GOD that allowed me to meet him... but sad.. the ending is not I wanted.. I wish that he can be my very close friend, bother and etc... he always lend his ears to me... I guess that would be another one for me to meet up...
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