Loneliness

Do you feel lonely at times?

Do you feel at times when you have free time on hand, but because you are alone, you tend to just sit back and wait for miracles to happen? And when it’s late and you sense that it’s not going to happen, you end up telling yourself

“ It’s late anyway, I think I’ll just sleep “

How about times when you are at a shopping mall? You walk around, with full intention of knowing what you want to buy, then suddenly, you realize that the mall is full of couples!! Turn left, couple holding hands. Turn right couple staring into each other’s eyes and talking. Turn back, couple looking at a window display and commenting. Look straight, couple walking closely with each other! Now I am not sure about you, but I would be so wishing that 1 am one of the couple among all the couples I am seeing!

Being single SUCKS!!

That said, why am I bitching about being alone when I did not bitch that much before? That’s because Kim is now seeing someone! Call me jealous, call me greedy, call me an ATTENTION seeker, but BOY it sure is lonely without him around, as and when I needed him! And even if I HAVE him, I get like a ‘shift’ companionship. How does this works? Picture this. We go out for gym. We planned to work on a specific body part. Then before we start, he said, gym is only for 30 minutes today. Why? Because his other half wants to see him. Spare me, spare ME!! Or was it SPANK me? Hmmm!! And here we have is exhibit conversation A …

CL - “Are we going out to Frangi tonight for a drink?”

Kim - “Errr . . .NO”

CL - “Huh? Why…?”

Kim - “Because I have to go see him?”

CL - “What !!??” … push Kim out the door, SLAMS it and then said … ‘BYE!”


Oh yes, allow me to add in Kim’s own defense just to make it fair eh?

“But (censored), you will always be important to me”

Anyway, back to my main topic. I tend to get sidelined at times with my conversation, I wonder why? Hmmm. Focus. FOCUS!

The thing about loneliness is, most guys whom you asked for an opinion says they would rather be single. By the way, did I mentioned that most of these so called guys are under the attached category? Cheh! And, surprise – SURPRISE!, most guys who actually replied that they can’t wait to be happily attached are SINGLE, VERY AVAILABLE and DEVOTEDLY and FAITHFULLY guys … like ME!!!!

That said, need to find a lover FAST ..!

Volunteers anyone? Surely you have a single and available gay friend, cousin, older brother, nephew, colleague, EX!!, or SOMETHING!

Please pretty pleaseeeeeeeeee ……………. ?